Random musings

[msattler]

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Tonight the bottle let me down......[/url]

[msattler]

You drink what you want to.

I have my own agenda,.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6zsAKJYBHyE

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This much I can promise you.............

I may0. be gone, but, Once. 

[msattler]

I have said, many tijme, for many reasons, whi I am where I am.

Tjhis is one...........
You take from it what you neeed to.
I know where I comei from.


I eo not need your helpl.

I really do not.


I got everything I need from every insulting person on the planet.l

Go figure. 

Some day.............
I  shall fly away..........and some may wonder why and how they chased me away so badlly.

But not to worry now or today.  I can deal with it for a few more days.
When that is done,  I dunho, kids.  I simply dunno.l

What has to happen shall, and neither you nor I can  stop it.  It is simpl7y gonna be what it is gonna be.

I gave all I had to the projet, for over a quarter of my life.

You take and roll that up into the thousands of dollars it too to do it.......you go and figure why I am distraught.

I think I got it figured now......some who have less that I do wish they had more.  And they are mods.
I don't have any room in my heart for them anymore.

they should have room in theiirs for me.

Nuff said.

I am going now..........off to the land of Oz.
I have spent a lottat hours researching Judy Garland.  Very tragic.  Very said, very abused,.
The wixard was a pedophile.
The witch was a mod on Seiti.
The tin man was me........man without a heart.
The lion was all of the kitties.

amd.
This should explain it.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6jcm4kwmz44

[msattler]

I know this is pedantic......
I know I repeat myself.
But, I do know who I am.
If only some of you could understand me as well as iI understand myself.
Oh, sigh.

I have one thing to say and then, I go the way that many of my loved ones have.

I only ever tried to love.......and only struck out when struck upon.

I hope you may come to know that one day......what I was really about.

I cannot teach it, I cannot give it.  You have to earn it.  You have to be it, own it, know it.

One day, one of you will eyeball me up above.  And simply say WTF, Mark.
You knew it all from the get go, didn't you?

Yes, kids.........
I did.

One day, you , maybe just a few, might understand me.

And when you do, you will cry because you were so cruel to me.

I know where I am going.........see 'ya.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U016JWYUDdQ

[Pizzadude]

I always wondered why this board was called lunatics.   

[msattler]

I suppose that would be because many outsiders would consider our quest 'looney'.
I personally do not consider it so.......obviously.

[msattler]

Ya know.
A man's trust is a wonderful thing.
No sense losing it for a Handful of cards........[/urll]

I suspect that would be my case.....

[msattler]

There are things I culdd say, but I shouldn't/
Things  I could say, but I wouldn 't
/Things, I have nigh, but woe be my
plade to hang things where I souldn't.,

I  wnet so far, beyohd my teaars,
ixpressed so much beyond me years.
Thats why you fear me.

I say som things that sadness brings,
And thixs is what the crux is.

Kids, I live a    long  long  way away f rom  your world.

I have told you thing so many times.
Kpax just ain't a hop skip and a jump away.
It took eons to be here just to   sit  in front of a half dozen machines  doing mathematical calulations.... and yet.
we  are  not threre yet.

Soon.  Soon.

[Pizzadude]

"There are things I culdd say, but I shouldn't"

I guess you should of followed that advice when posting to to the Seti forums, perhaps it would have saved your ass from a ban (again) !!!!

[msattler]

http://setiathome.berkeley.edu/forum_thread.php?id=72637#1407450
What I do in my own way from this little part of Earth may indeed impact humanity one day.
And not too far from now.
I should hope it would be in my lifetime, but perhaps not.
My silly ass ban from the Seti forums has not stopped my computers.
Just my interaction with some ignorant folks that don't like my use of the language.
 
I happen to be more intelligent than some of them, and that gores their ox.

Not my problem, it's theirs to bear.

If they wish to continue to display their ignorance and arrogance by furthering my ban, so be it.
If that helps them somehow feel superior, I'll give it to them.

Fact remains.......
I have done more for Eric's project than most people on the planet.
And you folks here can and should understand that.
And I am NOT diminishing what you have contributed either, don't get me wrong.
Without your work, I would not be able to do what I am doing either.

BTW.........
You all, every one of you, should bury the ax and get Jason back here.
You all could accomplish more as a team.  My two shiny pennies.

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It's just too hot.
I have most of the rigs shut down, yet the kitties and I are all melting.

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BTW,
One who I watch and look after........
For reasons some of you would know.

http://www.foxnews.com/health/2013/08/23/lorna-luft-daughter-legend-judy-garland-details-her-ongoing-battle-with-breast/?intcmp=obnetwork

[msattler]

Electricity is a wonderful servant........
But it can be a rather robust master as well.
If you are squeamish, stop the clip before 8:40.,

It is not pretty.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yX5TIDLvMyw


 I can attest to this.........
I did a summer side job changing electric meters about 10 years ago.
One blew up in my face and scattered my face shield with copper bits.
Some contractors were not real particular about following protocol regarding 'frost loops'.
Which meant that when you pulled the meter out of the socket, the accumulated tension from the lines being pulled into the ground over all those years made the whole 240v thingy jump off the wall and hell ensued.
The sound you hear in some of the vids?
You will never forget it.  I lost some of me hearing that day.  Resounded through the neighborhood for what seemed like minutes.  You will never, ever forget that sound.  I found some of these vids a little scary to relive.

I wound up set on my butt about 20 yards away.

My boss shows up about 10 minutes later and proffers me a new face shield.....LOL.
He says... Son, get up off your *** and get back to work, or you'll never stare it down again.

And, he was right.
About 2 months later, one came apart on me again.
This one was a 480 commercial socket, not a 240 residential.
I was told later that the meter was deliberately sabotaged to blow up when touched because the customer had not paid the bill for months, and were slated to be cut off.
Last I heard, they were doing  1 year to life for attempted murder.

 I did tell ya, I've had an interesting life.

[msattler]

I am really kinda sorry, and yet I am really kinda not.

What I have to say will be very painful for some to hear.
But, it's not like you could have ignored the thunder in the distance for this long without knowing the storm was coming.

I have made many friends on this road, and a few back stabbers as well.
Comes with the territory, I guess.

I have both made and broken more than a few friendships along the way.
I wish that those who read my words upon this day are those I have shaken hands with as friends.

I do know that all are not my enemies.  And I do know that a few that think they are, might reconsider after some recollection.
Some shall not.

What remains are the few that have stood by me for 13 years or more.
Those who, while not endorsing every move I have ever made, always stood by me and my choices.
 I know who you are, and I shall always cherish what you have done for me.
It was invaluable.

Dreams shall live on.
Mine will. 
You shall think of me every single day this project continues.
What more could I ask?